i saw dis pic on tumblr and it just make me wanting to cry,
so sad dat i still feel like i want him back,
and wat's worst is that i still cannot let him go just like dat,
i dont know why.......

the truth is told,
and i still want him
i know i mistake,
we keep sms-ing but he still wont take me back,
how my heart feel so hurt rite now,

i cry day and nite and i still cannot forget u
why is it so hard to let u go?
why cant u see me like u saw me before when we are still together?
if u dont like me, why u still keep replying my sms
that makes me suffer u know?
if u dont want me anymore,
u should just ignore me so let me hurt so much
and then i maybe will forget u..i hope..

dont u love me anymore?
i say all my sorrys
i kneel to all i can to u to take me back
why u soo jual-mahal?

Nway, i hate the girl dat u keep telling me about..
i may be your ex but i still wants u back..

Unexpected Love

It was the same usual days of my college life with regular classes, projects, labs and seminars when I saw him for the first time. Tall, dusky with shabbily trimmed moustache, white shirt n denim jeans. I felt as if my heart had just moved out of its place thudding hard. At first I felt like it was a crush as my feelings were just bursting out of nowhere. My eyes were just caught and I wanted to talk to him. But he was junior to me and my mouth was shut due to junior senior spacing in college which didn’t let me speak out to him.

Since that day, my eyes started searching him whenever it got a chance. Those were the unknown baby steps towards an unusual love story. Ever since I saw him, I wished I could just talk to him. At first it seemed like a crush but then I realized with time that each passing time I began to like him more and more and I don’t even remember when it turned into love. I could not express my feelings to him and how my heart felt for him and at the same time I just kept on thinking about him day and night.

Finally whether I was lucky enough or was coincidence don’t know but I got a chance to talk to him. There was a project in which both of us had to work together. He was kind of unsocialising but that didn’t make me worry because being with him did not push me to talk to him I just wanted him to be with me. He never talked to me but we just exchanged glances at each other. He never called me by my name or anything just gave me signals and I could very well understand that. While working together also he was so perfectly perfect that I couldn’t find him making a single mistake. Finally the projects were over and the day came for which we were awaiting for so long and for the first time I was so close to him that I could even feel his breath. And the very touch of his breath was as if he had taken me all into his embrace with his long strong arms.

Our mission was a grand success. This was the first good news. The other came the next day. He asked me to be his date for the prom! It was like a dream come true. I was so very happy that I had to pinch myself several times to make sure that I was not sleeping or dreaming. We went to the prom. That was the happiest night of my life. We danced and for the first time I saw him laughing with me. After that he dropped me home. I was all in smiles but he still looked grave and a bit shaky. He kissed my cheek and hugged me hard and went away without a word.

The next day I went to the college but he did not come. I called him several times but he did not receive my call. I did not know whom to ask for he did not have friends. I also did not know where to search for. One day passed, then another, then another. In this way a whole year passed away. I still waited for him to come back. But the years started flying quickly and soon it was almost more than 3 years. I had already graduated. I missed him hard and every night I cried myself to sleep.

One day when I returned from work I saw a large brown box tied in jute strings. There was no name of the sender. Just my name and address. I got curious to know. I opened it and there were huge stacks of paper. At first I thought it to be a rude joke but then I saw that those were not blank pages. Instead they were letters addressed to me. Starting from the day I and he started to work together. And every letter said the same thing. How much in love he was with me. I cried with every letter. There were a total of 1430 letters.

He had been writing to me since last 3 years and 11 months. The last letter was dated a month ago. And this too said the same. But the next shocking papers were his medical reports. He was diagnosed with brain tumor and he left for US the night he last said good bye. He was going for a radiation therapy and it was not sure if he would ever return. One by one everything flashed into my mind. He never liked to create a bond of friendship. He never refused to help anyone. He was so good just very reserved. No one ever asked why and he never reasoned it. The last hug was to feel me within him. He wanted to feel me for the last time so that he could cherish the memories for ever till the day he dies.

The next letter was written by his parents. They thanked me. For it was because of my love that he wanted to live. Every night before sleeping he prayed to lengthen his life so that he could get well soon and go back and claim his love. It was for my love that he survived for three and a half years. The letter went on saying that his last wish was to deliver these letters to you and apologize to you for leaving you alone when you needed him so badly and that he says that this time the life was short. In the next birth he has asked god to grant him a long life so that he could do everything that he wanted to do for me in this life.

There came the last letter again from him. It said that he too felt the connection between us but was too scared to accept. He did not want me to weep for him before time. All this time he wanted to see me happy. He tried hard not to fall in love but he could not help it and that was his biggest mistake. It read that if falling in love with me was his mistake then he is ready to commit such a mistake without any regret. It said that he was ready to exchange all his next births if only he could get a chance to live with me for one life time.

I could not speak a word except cry, feel sad that he is no more, or happy that he loved me. It was all very confusing. Just the sweet memories of the time when we were together. The mesmerizing memories of Piya and Varun.

RAINBOWS

The Funny Thing

One day I was on the phone with my fiancé. We were talking about our relationship and all the things we had been through together. I said to him the thing that surprises me the most is the drama I went through in my mind. I said to him that the first time I saw him I was afraid to talk to him, and then when I met him I was afraid to kiss him, after we kissed I was afraid to love him and now that I love him the only thing that I am deadly afraid of is losing him. Now the weird part is after we had gotten off the phone I went on the internet and I checked my email. I got a forwarded message from my cousin with a beautiful poem on it and to my surprise the poem said to me in almost the exact same word what I had just come from telling him. My only comment was, "now that is what you call a twist of fate". I know I posted this in the humor section but I wasn't sure where it fell, it isn't haha funny but it is coincidental, at least for me.

The Wife With Such Fun

A jealous husband hires a private detective to check up on his wife. The husband tells the detective, he wants both a written account and as many videos of her in any kind of compromising situations as the man can get.

Two weeks later the detective calls the man and tells him he has all the evidence he needs. They make an appointment for a meeting. The two of them are sitting there watching the videos. The man sees his wife meeting another man, then the two of them are walking in the park laughing. Another series shows her with a different man laughing and dancing. All together, he watches a dozen or so different activities, each with a different man, each time both she and the man are sharing obvious utter glee.

"Amazing," said the shocked husband, "simply amazing ! I just can't believe it."

"What can't you believe ?" asked the detective, "It's all right there for you to see, plus I have all the times and dates in my log."

"I know, I know!" said the man, still in shock, "I just can't believe my wife could be that much fun."

hello readers,
glad to be here once again,
so long i didnt came here to write,

i got a week holiday before start my last semester,
and i cannot wait to end ekekekek

what i wanna do on this hot day yaRh?
before i'm heading back to Penang,
ekekekek but niway, HEPI KAAMATAN to all,

i am so proud today for being a kadazandusun
ekekeke and i just hope my cousin win on the unduk ngdau
but sadly she just got num 3 and couldnt get to the state unduk ngdau
pity,

she is beautiful but just not beautiful enuff maybe to them,
daMn!